workout.

just got home from the worst workout ever.! i was so lazy today its upsetting. DDD: ! my brother and i both took our cars instead of just driving one. cause hes just stupid like that hahaha. and then on the way home he was racing me D: i could have driven faster but i dont have my license and i was afraid we were gunna get pulled over by cops LOL soo oh well! sooon ill smokee his little car >:D aside from that, things are going alright. not great but theres one thing thats keeping me going! and hopefully at the end of this month ill be able to see him finally <3. schools fine hopefully i have all good grades right now im kind of nervous sigh!

day one.!

i dont feel amazing.! but i know i will one day (:
school today was alright. it was pretty cold this morning. which means its startinggg to become fall and following that it will be winter ! <3 october is almost here which means my license is almost here [: one more month (8 . octobers kaylas favorite month because she loves halloween! so im pretty excited to see what were going to do this year.! ahahaha. ill have my license by then! unless i fail ! which will make me sad. like no joke :pppp
soo after school. i watched tv. and decided to browse the web for clothes and shoes that i wanted. lool i think theses are way cute. [: toms all the way<3

i miss you.

today was like any other day. even tho i was like way tired this morning.
yesterday i took a nap after school from like 3 to 7 and then fell asleep at like 12am. woke up this morning hella tired. which was totally gay. first period went by slow as usual. but second period was faster then it usually is.! which was amazing. physics class was same as usual, confusing! at lease me and eddy finished our lab today. i think we were talking about something today but i totally forgot.. lol! [i just remembered! right when i finished..lol! :D eddy got his damnss licensesss todaay which means hes taking me out to lunch erryday and were gunna get fatt together! lOl! 8DDD gratsss eddy <3 ] uhm anywho.! art was alright. i finished my art project i dont like how it turned out but i turned it in anyway. for once i accually got my pre cal homework so instead of looking at the answers i just did them all in art class haha. lunch was hott. D: blah but i went to christian club with shaheed. and then after lunch was math, i asked pasha to help me with my physics cause i didnt get it and i have him in that class but he was like " no your a bitch" which is cool haha kidding after he said that he did help me but hes not a very good teacher cause i had no fucking clue what he was telling me which isnt great. ieve been pretty fed up with this week. i want the weekend to come and never end.








i need someone to put a smile on my face.

downhill

so things havent gone as well as they usually go. its not bad to the point where its made me accually completely sad. sometimes i wonder why my dad cant change for me. and sometimes i wonder why he cant just learn to love someone the way we all love him. i find myself growing up and each day getting more and more heartless. will i turn out like him one day?
now hes gone, and so is my mom. a time in my life where i feel like i need my parents around they are no where to be found. urggh.
schools getting harder. or maybe its just because im starting to slack off. i know i cant though so i need to step my game up. lol. i need tutors and i need my license. i think school would be so much easier if i could transport myself wherever i need too.

catching uppp

so i havent been updating lately which isnt great. cause alot has been going on! :DDDDD soo last saturday my lovees and i celebrated chi tien and minnas birthday at BJs it was really fun cause then after that we went to nicks house to watch fightingg.! :DDD here are some photos.!


it was really fun, ahhaa it was like a haddd to be there event :DDDD andd i guess this week has been going pretty well ! CIA was fun jen has photos of us on the sofa! which was cutee. :DDD and todayy thomas hao minna and i went to brea mall to hang out! thomas was trying to look for cute shoes but that didnt turn out to well haha and we kinda just walked around trying to take pictures in different places which was interestinggg, then after brea we went to BJs to get a pazookee.! and here is a photo of us at normstroms ahaha.

stupidd;

this week, was insanely crazy. i hated it;i loved it; i wanted it to be over before it even started. it started out with bad news that made me go nuts inside my head but then as heartless as i am, i didnt give a shit the next day. a part of me is glad that i dont linger on things and hold on to them as long as i used too, but it does make me feel heartless most the time which isnt great either right? well, that news was shit. and my week went by slow, i guess i told everyone i didnt give a shit but for some reaosn, i didnt really let it go. why? cause it gave me a reason to live for. but now its whatever? thursday, went to a football game and sat at lollicup with kayla for like two hours just talking about stuff, karma bit me in the ass today and cancelled my planns but thats okey? cause 'i dont care' hah, jessica took me out tonight for dinner we got to know eachother on a higher level which is neat. talking to her is fun. school today wasnt that bad either, at lease his ass didnt ignore me today which obviously made me smile but that didnt last long lol, great.
this weekend sounds like its going to be a busy one. because,
tomorrow i have to go to choir practice at like 2 and then i have to leave and come home so i can go to a meeting around 5ish, and then i have to go to church at 6ish and apparently were singing a song in church this week which is nerve wracking. after church were supposed to go out for chi tien and minnas bday, some kinda dinner thing i guess? im going to be way tired tomorrow. and then on sunday i need to finish my psychology crap online and my project. D: physics homework and pre cal homework. ehh.!

today is my birthday :D

even tho it didnt go the way i wanted it too. it was still a pretty good birthday.! :DDDD first off, eileen came over in the morning to give me a present which was totally sweet! she also woke me up from my sleep ahahaha. buht i love her birthday card i think its the prettiest thing i have ever laid eyes on ! :D
i fell alseep during the day aha whooo, then i woke up to go to the resturant to go eat with my family! which was neat ahahaha i saw brian vuong there ! which is nice cause i havent seen him in a while ! hahahaha. we said hi and then started texting even tho we were like a table away from eachother . ahahaha hes funny we textd like all night. when i got home! i was talking to thomas cause he was supposed to bring me boba. ! lool but yeah he came over to my house with hao and calvin and hao pretended that he was pregnant with my birthday present which was wierd. LOL! :D buht it was a cute present ! thanks a bunch.! we started to play with the air soft gunn and i was prtending that i was going to shoot him and he was being a baby about it! GAY hahahaha. [: then later minh thai came over with chi tien! <3 which was sweet hahaha. and we all just hungg out like we always do! loool. we all went into peters room and started planing next week for chi tien and minnas birthday ! lool. i loveee them ! [: and tonight was bombin' ;D
ill try to get photos up soooon ahaha.

beeday weekend.

so yesterday was friday ahaha, and it was funn! cause after schoool my brother and i went to lollicup ahah jacqueline was there and yeaah , it was sivams bday so i got to see him and give him ballooons and i saw martin and hao as well at elmo. ! hahaha. umm, kayla came over to my house and brought a whole bunch of stuff.! cupcakes foood drinkss! hello kitty CUPS&NAPKINS<33 how cute! i love them hahaha. and she brought me a present too ! i love her to death she always goes all out.! and her mom does too hahaha <3 we like ate and hung out at my house, we were going to go to the movise but instead we went to main place which was fun i guess? ahaha some guys at the tmobile place was like hitting on kayla LOL [: then we were all talking to them and stuff it was accually pretty funny. [: i was going to buy my brother the shoes he wanted for his bday but they didnt have his size so they can go eff themselves? xD ! umm.! im really hungry right now LOL x] buht todays saturdaaay! and my moms friend is coming over for the weekend so yeah! [: bday is on monday! :D <3

yesterday.

yesterday was jonnys birthday [: i never said happy birthday rawrh ]: hahaha.! i forgot to say it even tho i was thinking it all day.! sorry! haha. this week is also, ritters, sams, sivams, and my birthday! [: stellar. ahaha. ritters is the 3rd, sivams is the 4th, sams the 6th, mines the 7th.! if only someone was on the 5th hahaha <3
sooo. art class is now officially boring because ian had to transfer out.! which totally stinks i guess [: umm.! schools same olee issh i guess its hott and its lame i hate this weather cause it makes me feel way sick so thats not cool. ]: on top of that it rained today for like 5 minutes?! and apparently it only rained around villa park high? because my car was at home and it didnt look like it rained at all on it, buht my bros car is so dirty now hahaha yuck. [: lets see. umm nothing much has happened, my dad came back here from vietnam for about 3 weeks so wooh. and my birthday is coming up soon.! 3day weekend im excited even tho its only tuesday.! i wish this weeek went by faster.! ]: